In the Company of Another

I wrote this poem in January 2001, having no idea I had ADD.  Reading it now – knowing this mutant power lives inside me, I realize how insane I was feeling.  Any of you ADDers feel like this?  What do you do about relieving these feelings?  

People say all the time I’m this or I’m that 

Some want my blessing for some it’s tit for tat

Or maybe just to fill some God-shaped void

 

I turn a deaf ear past the shallow affection

So they give up fighting for my attention

They think it’s too hard, the price too steep

It’s not hard to find, but not easy to keep

 

I’m not looking for love

I’m looking for forever

I’m fine if I don’t find it ‘cause

What’s worse than being alone

In the company of another

 

I’m sorry I gave you a ring

I didn’t mean to bug you

It’s ok, know talk’s not your thing

just wondering how you’re doing

Thanks for your time I’ll see you around

Maybe next time if I’m back in town

 

As I wait at the stop opportunities past me by

Like buses headed to places other people wanna try

Thanks for stopping but I’m not getting on

I’m just gonna wait for the right one to come along

 

I’m not looking for love

I’m searching for forever

If I don’t find it that’s okay ‘cause

What’s worse than being alone

In the company of another

 

Is the price of waiting worth all the pain

Just for someone to ride my train

Looking for connection, the comfort of being

Why is the simple life so excruciating?

 

I’m not searching for love

I’m waiting for forever

I’m fine if I don’t find it

What’s worse than feeling alone

In the company of another